sometimes i wish...
...i'd had the "typical" college experience, living on campus, making new friends & lots of memories--instead of living at home, working full time to put myself through school & cramming a very full course load into the remainder of my time, leaving me very little time in which to enjoy the last of my young-adulthood. however i treasure my education & the responsibility it taught because i own it completely.
...i had a real mother-daughter relationship. although i wouldn't trade the closeness i shared with my Gram for *anything* in the world.
...i wasn't the last one of my friends unmarried & childfree. but i certainly don't regret *not* proceeding to those levels in the past.
...all of my friends could be local. even though i wouldn't have the fun of going to visit them & see new places.
...i had asked more questions of my grandparents, taken more photos, recorded more memories. i'm making a point to do that now.
...i hadn't taken the path i did to get where i am. but i *like* the person i have become as a result.
...i lived somewhere with four seasons. of course then i would miss Disney World and orange blossoms.
sometimes i wish.
but mostly i am just grateful for all that i have been blessed with. because what i *do* have is so very very good.
5 with their own thoughts:
Thanks for sharing your wishes. I am so thankful for how my life has turned out but I have some wishes, too. It seems such a shame that you can't take two paths to get to the same place...
You have such a great attitude! :)
And I am completely with you on the first paragraph. In fact, I almost wrote those exact words the other day!! I think about it a lot, and quite honestly if I ever have a child and s/he wanted to go the college route, I think I would highly recommend the traditional college experience just because I feel like I missed out on a lot by not doing it!
kreed: I guess having wishes without regretting your current life is the way it goes for most of us, huh? Maybe it makes us appreciate more what we do have. =)
Brandi: I am so torn on it! I think it's something not to be missed out on if at all possible...but on the other hand, I think "owning" your own education really makes you work & commit to it so much harder because it's *your* money. Truly your own investment--which I know has served me well. I wonder if it's possible to have both...
Sounds like your head is in a good place now!
I really admire that you are able to recognize all that you have *alongside* things you wish you could've had. Because -- and I'm sure you understand this -- if one thing in your life had been different, it's virtually impossible that you would be where you are now. Which isn't exactly to say that everything has a meaning, but which *is* to say that there is a value that can be found, even if in retrospect, in everything.
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