realize

And coming here has made me come to this:
The one thing I can't get back is the one thing I miss.

It was breakin' rules, flyin' blind;
What you see through younger eyes;
It wasn't what I thought it was,
Man, I swore he was the one.
And then I miss those days,
But comin' back to this place,
I realize it ain't him I miss,
It's that young girl, wide-eyed, first love, one time innocence.
("Innocence", Sarah Buxton)